Lucky ? Lucky not ?

Fml my voice not yet back !! Almost 1 week seriously whatever I can do I already do drink tons of herbal tea and water but still not fully recover !!

I'm dame tired please return me my voice I promise I will zip my mouth whenever I can. Stop talking so much cause non of my business !!!

Back to main office to do work I hate going there cause I got to see boss face and listen his wonderful music scolding people non stop I hate that office I want to go second office I can enjoy myself there read my novel and listen to the radio of my choice..

This week 5 days keep on go there do the job that I have to do. Anyway just do it then I can do it

I almost sprain my left leg ankle again this time round I'm lucky enough nothing happen toe really must pray and I'm lucky I had been wearing the amulet this few weeks and it keeps me away from many things like today if  not wearing I think I will end up crying in pain due to my carelessness. Thank you thank you thank you I will pray more and be thankful everyday !!

Let recover ya!! I need my voice back I hate the current voice! My  mum gad been getting lots of herbal tea for me to drink in order for me to recover . Lessons learn never ever eat fried food when your throat is in pain if not hahaha have to pay for the it. Voiceless !!

I'm meeting people coming Thursday and Fri please let me recover I promise I won't talk so much like gossiping. Listen will do no comment even though I say something is just to make them  know I did listen.  (people had been telling me lots of things I have to keep myself make myself so busy I really don't know what to do)

有人說我是开心果 跟我聊天后烦恼会消失
但是没有人知道 我烦恼的时候不可以跟任何一个人說!!  😦

Stay or leave ?

Seriously I got no idea to stay or to leave!!

I got confirmation letter after working a month in the new office. Yes I'm really thankful for what I have now but after seeing so many people leave the company I really worried about my job..

Totally don't understand what they want us to do.. when you are free watch show is the only way to killed time but when you are busy don't bother to eat lunch ! I went through both and I'm kinda used to jot having lunch but ask me seat there do nothing just watch show this is my very first time and I kinda feel weird..

Planning for my holiday on March 2018 and caculate the amount I'm going to spend over there is killing my brain cells and hurting my eye read up lots of information and think about what I have to do.. solo trip wasn't easy!!

Urgh!! I lost my voice for 6 days wtf and I'm super irritated by it I don't want to see doctor cause I don't want eat antibiotics and they only give me lozenges ( which I can get at Watson,7-11,cheers or supermarket) why would I spend this money  ?? So I'm drinking tons of herbal tea now which helps but slow !!

I'm going meet my ex colleague this Thurs. Gonna let her laugh at me cause of  my horse voice hahaha. Anyway I don't even know if I can meet her or not, month ago she ask me why I only wish my shifu happy birthday and I didn't wish my ex ( so called ex) eh twin brother so I wish the want who I'm close with la! So called ex don't need my wishes he is the want who say that we are stranger so I just do what he wish for he got lots of people wishes him don't need me 多我一个不多少我一个不少 don't need wasted my time on him..

He saw me he also act as stranger only my shifu and his girlfriend  say hi to me so no point waste my time right.. He heard what they say about me   on the birthday celebration i guess cause i asled my ex colleague to pass message so they say I lose weight and  look very different from last time! Really! thank you I will lose more weight and be more beautiful! ( motivation for losing weight and beautiful)

Although i lost my  important friend which I'm sad about it but life still carry on with or without that friend.

Thank you for being there for me when I need you and good luck to you !!

I'm leading a happy life now I have my goals to achieve and I'm going to work hard for I'm no longer the girl who dreams about everything I'm starting a fresh and I'm going to do this myself

Those who look down on me before I'm going to show you I can do it. Stay tune ! I'm going to let you know I can do it and better then you !!

Thank you for hurting me and I learn my lesson !!

Thank you thank you thank you !

You motivated me a lot !

New job ! New things ! New fun!

Had been working at this company almost 3 weeks and I'm okay with it.. Firstly I hate to go warehouse office but when I'm there oh my God I watch show like nobody business anyway this only honeymoon period more to come will get busy next week onwards..

Let me have a easy day please!  We move the main office today and I have to help them so tomorrow I will be there to help them as well give me a easy day thank you seriously I got no idea what to do there..

I meet a few nice colleagues we talk a lot and have lots of fun together. I know they dislike each other in some point of view but this is very comment things happen in office I just get my job done and go home that's all..

Never get involve in their conflict as it's non of my business!!

Heard my colleague mention we are going for a company trip on November. Location either Taiwan or Korea!!! OH MY GOD!! I wanna go Taiwan again and Korea for the first time.. Hope this is real company trip I'm dame happy if I can go Taiwan eat and shop will I drop!! Contact lens is my first purchase I will buy whatever I can !!! Eat ? Don't let me have diarrhea will do hahaha my gastric not good so I a bit worry but still I would love to go!!! I miss Taiwan !! Please make it happen go on November it will be winter !!! Make it happen thank you!!

I learn on lesson from a new colleague. when you go work just do whatever you have to and also treat it as your last day there as no one knows what will happen next. I just ignore all problem that  not involve cause it's really not my problem and I'm not the want doing it I follow all the instructions and do my job that's all.

Never forget what you had

Weeks staying at home,  no joke at all I'm really sad when I didn't get the job I want previously I went for lots of interview I didn't give up at all keep looking for job keep baking to destressed.

I did get a few offer but then I rejected it as its not the want I really looking for and too far as well. They say at west side but is super west like need to take bus or transport and working hours are 5 1/2 days Saturday need to work I don't want to work in Saturday anymore its dame shag!! 

Some company there timing so weird and benefits so lousy I wonder what they thinking cheating people?? 

Lucky I never accept that if not I will never got this job which near my house just few bus stop and will reach.. And finally I gotten myself a job which only requires me to work 5 days and near my house. 

Thank you thank you thank you. The power of attraction is unbelievable!  I'm so happy for myself!!

I was so upset so down hopeless back then.  I went to pray on Friday and seek shi fu advice and i stay positive and forget all negative thoughts in me listen to myself know what I need go for interview stay positive all time believing I gotten this job and........

I DID IT I GOTTEN MYSELF A JOB!!  Starting working on Tuesday....

Apart from shi fu advice. I did read up book called The secret I used the law of attraction years ago to get things I wanted like getting myself a part time job,  getting a new phone,  travel overseas to Taiwan which I had been thinking all those years,  getting myself the first Pandora.

I have not been doing the law of attraction for a year and I clearly forgotten it till one day I walk to my book shelves and saw the books and read some of my notes I wrote and in it and yes I did get what I want after that..

I forgotten how I get these things I forgotten to be thankful and all those unhappy things started to come so now I shall be thankful again I shall forget all those things I asked for I saw how it happen back then when I asked for things I want so I'm gonna do it all over again!! 

Good luck to me. 

Signing off
Lin

Life at home without working

Life at home without working..

Aside looking for job what I did was baking all kind of bread , cake , pie and do some simple dish..

I love food and I hate gaining weight #girlsproblem #dietisamust

So I have not touch those food for a few months and when I was working back then cause I really no mood and super stressed!

When I'm stressed I don't feel like eating and also don't feel like talking all I did was pull a long face like the world own me billions dollar!!

So baking helps me to destressed and I love baking too.  Why I never took up baking course back then?  Hahaha I should have taken up the course and maybe I'm a baker now? 

Well. Guess it's not a big problem at all as my baking passion didn't died off after many years.  ..

I started baking when I was 15 years old? My very first cookies was sugi cookies I learn it from my bff  and I was very into the baking after that. 

So I try to make shepherd pie and all kind of weird cookies if course it's edible !!

Slowly started to buy those premix cake flour just add water and oil and bake for 25-30 mins you got a cake..

Years goes by I started to bake more weird cookies the first weird cookies was lasak cookies the out come super salty and not nice at all!!

Dame it super horrible I don't even wanna try it again!! So now they are selling it and I never try it before I shall go get it hope they still has it!!

Now I can bake from scratch without getting those premix by just adding water butter egg ect..

I learn all the recipes from YOUTUBE and all the baking chef are my teachers I learn from video and take do all the recipes by hand I know I can just look at my phone but then I still prefer writing it down so I can make notes of my own like how it turn out is it too watery ? too hard?  Notes for myself so I can make changes next time round..

So I have make lots of bread cake cookies and cook one dish..

I failed to make Chinese steam bun ( Bao Zi  包子) I got no idea what went wrong so I give up on this challenge I don't want to waste ingredient !! 😂

Below are the food I make this few weeks at home.. After showing the food I make to two  of my friend the reply from them was...

Friend number 1,  wow, can see but can not eat bring over please!! 

Friend number 2 , someone become baker!? 

Hahaha well I did plan to open up one cafe house in few years time so now let me learn as much as I can..

Should I take in order?? Many people selling it online should I give a try but then is there people who willing to buy as there is so many choices out there!! 

Practice make perfect!! I shall practice more so by the time I set up a cafe I will be the want baking all those cakes bread pie.. Drinks I will get someone to do it hahaha. 

Wonder why I like baking so much , I can only cook Maggie mee back then till now I could actually bake food out!!  

Impressed by myself

Okay enjoy the photo

Bye
Love
Lin

Finally FREE from stressed

Finally I'm free yes FREE!!   FUCK HER TO THE MAX!!!  she is dame crazy one moment she was scolding me  then the other moment suddenly become very nice and then turn crazy again!!  If I were to stay I might be ended up in mental hospital!! 

Seriously no joke!! I really don't understand how could a person be like this adding all her stressed to the other is like no logic right.

Yes I'm single and worry less. I don't have kids to take care of and what I do is pay some bills give my mum so money and that's all.  So what I don't need pay my other expenses? Don't jealous about my life my salary is not like your salary.. You could ask for more but you don't want and please don't try to act like you are very mighty everyone got to look up on you or wanna be like you.

Nope I won't want. I don't want be like you cause you only think you are right and please if you wanna say things behind people back remember this they will say you as well.

I never fight back when you nag me because I don't want to waste my time on your useless comment I know right and wrong I don't need you to teach me I'm big enough to make the choice my own. 

If you found my blog and reading it
DON'T TRY TO ASK ME WHY THIS WHY THAT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE YOU BETTER REMEBR IT AND STOP BEING LIKE THAT.  Don't tell me you will reflect because you won't do it as you might think you are always right and others always wrong..

Finally I'm free from the hell!!! WHY I WANNA LEAVE ?

You ALWAYS say I don't know how to use my brain.

Number 1) I never encounter this before how would I know what to write and you always say I don't know how to write email the way I write not proper blah blah blah.

LET ME EXPLAIN - why not you show me then I learn but your words hurt me what's call I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE MY BRAIN SO SIMPLE YET I DONT KNOW  I really don't know what's you want me to do??  Make a fool of myself let people laugh at you why you hired a staff who knows nothing? 

Number 2) you asked me help you make tea for your who?  Aunt?  She ask you why treat me like helper how you answer her?  I NEED TO USE MY BRAIN TO DO MY WORK, SHE ( REFERING ME)  DON'T NEED USE BRAIN TO DO WORK.

LET ME EXPLAIN - I help you make tea is because you are busy so I'm being helpful. IF MY WORK DON'T NEED USE BRAIN WHY YOU KEEP ON SCOLD ME?  I DON'T NEED TO USE MY BRIAN WHAT THIS IS WHAT YOU SAID! 

Number 3 ) when I was unwell what you say to me? forget let me refresh for you!  I SHALL BE THE WANT THAT FALL A SICK I GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO DO I SHALL BE THE WANT WHO GOT SICK. YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING STILL SICK. 

LET ME EXPLAIN - HELLO!  you think I want to be sick?? I can choose it?   I never do anything so I won't get sick OMG really so why the machine break down even when they are place there for a long time?

You are not fit to be a boss you only wanna show off to your ex boss and snitch away his client but did you win I don't think so.

Say me got mood swing?  Yes I have since birth and it's in my blood my face expression will tell you my mood of the day. 

Yours is more scary. Face changing mood well I also know this you wanna try my version? 

你要比狠是不是 我就做到最绝.
Yes i did mention if I wanna died I will died in the shop. This is my rules I make sure you taste your own medicine if you never be like this I won't do or say such things.

Remember. 我要绝可以很绝 我要玩可以玩恨大 玩 我会玩到让你死去活来！ 
You asked for it. Don't say I never warn you! 

I'm so so so so happy. I no longer so stressed. When I was there the stressed is in me till I turning crazy people around me keep on ask if I'm OK?  No I'm not if i were to be OK I won't say I wanna burn down her shop and I will be inside died together. I never want to end up the way cause she is way too much control me this and that every time ask IS MY JOB VERY HARD ? YOU GO OUTSIDE COULDN'T FIND THIS KIND IF JOB!  And also keep on repeat what my ex company things how they say me this and that.

I can't control their mouth they wanna bad mouth who is their problem. Because the mouth belongs to them and it grows on their face what they wanna say I can't stop I myself also will do same thing so what for I care?? Soon or later karma will come to you right? 

I don't want to know what they say it's over and don't need bring up anymore...

If I can I will slap you instead yes you cause I seriously hate you.

You push me to the limit I wish to control but sorry I'm not going to do it anymore.

My life My choice

Don't interfere my life!

My life my choice why must you care?  I know you want to help but then please I don't need your help cause you are way too much..

I choose the life I want why must you a outsider come an interfere??  Joke right I don't need that whatever I do I like it or not is my problem so please stay away from it.

If you want me to follow the road you choose for me I'm sorry to say WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU WHY MUST I LISTEN TO YOU?  ARE YOU MY PARENTS??  MY FAMILE MEMEBER??  NO YOU ARE AN OUTSIDER WHOM I KNOW LIKE YEAR PLUS! 

Don't try to make me listen to you.  I can listen to your advice I don't need to follow your words like choose what job I'm going to do.

I choose my job scope myself I want to challenge myself so I aim another job but you keep on want me to follow you please shut the fuck up i don't want to listen to your voice!! 

Let me go off on time and I'm happy to go for new job!!  I know it hard but I have to try my friend support me to try ask me to try it out I shall accept this challenge and do it.  Not easy but I have to try.  

All thanks to some people!  I just wanna rant my feeling and yes I'm so stressed up by one person who force me to stay over and over again in the job so now others think I'm crazy I need to go seek a doctor!!

It's true I need to cause I'm going break down soon due to the naging me to stay please shut that fuck up!!  Let me go off

You go look for other staff thanks. Why I don't fight back when people say me is because I don't want waste my time at useless people no matter what I say you also think it's wrong I better don't waste my time reply  I just zip my mouth will do..

Just because of shutting up makes you think I'm weak hahaha I just don't want waste time on your useless question no point answer you cause you are the want who always think you are right!!! 

Let me count down the days to leave your office. Finally free!!

I will never reply your stupid boring question like is my job difficult to do. No but I don't like you are dame irritating that's all no one like you actually you think people like you well no really like you say those who can tolerate you are same as you!!! 

You say me equal say yourself!  You ask your kids if they like the way you kpkb at them??  No  non if them like!! 

Please stop kpo-ing my life.

Get lost please!! 

Bitch! 

I HATE MY LIFE MY CHOICE!!!

Seriously i got no idea what to do now.

I lock myself up and cut contact with my BFF! I'm not angry with them at all i just don't know what to say whenever i meet them. There is a distance between us i got no idea how am i going to fix this they are perfect to me they know me since secondary school and we had been friends for like 10 years to 11 years, how come things turn out this way when i start to stay away from them..

I change job from accountant to administrative, I TOTALLY DYING SOON!!!

I never know how stressed i can be right now, everything i know for admin work return back to the teacher i know nuts now and whatever i learn become rusty as i never use it often during accountant job!

The job i did last time is more like A and B then repeat, even like this i did learn a lot from the people who taught me. Before i resign from that company i could give them a full details of things i did and pass down even though i miss out some while typing the details in excel sheets ( i key all the details while i got job on hand ) . Its not easy to typing all details that each company needs i took few hours doing it i got to edit if there is mistake and print  out the copies for the next person that take over my job.

Am i happy over there? The answer is HAPPY & SAD !
I do have problems there all because of some people, then my mood become very unstable i could be happy at one moment angry at the other moment MOOD SWING all the way. The staff there did say things behind my back and my lady boss also can't take it,  I have been giving them problem during that time all because of ONE FUCKER! Partly its my fault if i never say those things out it won't end up that way.

Thinking back now when i first took over the job i only have about 12 company needs list on hand and the rest of the company needs i have to ask while doing it. This is not easy as i had been making mistake as well during that times i need to learn others things over there too.

Till the days before i leave the company, I could give them about 20 company needs listed and to my surprise i actually remember a lot of things i learn over the past one year working at there.

I had a wonderful lady boss, fun colleague ! But still i choose to leave the company choose to leave the accountant position and go take the administrative position challenge.

Now i feel very stressed, did i choose the job scope wrongly this time ? Being a insurance agency admin how hard can it be? Still doing paper work , replied email , answer called only different is you will encounter different clients and things ! How stressed can it be? I should feel stress less here  but sorry NO I DON'T!

Working over here is very lively i encounter many different things. Sometime i can go Malaysia or even i can go home at the earliest time 3 - 4 Pm when many people still at work.. I should be happy about it right I DO FEEL HAPPY AND I FEEL UNHAPPY too why ?

I have a hard time weeks ago, i keep on get scolding non stop and also mistake all over the work! I don't know what happen to me!! Side effect for taking slimming coffee? Maybe!!

I tender my resignation letter yesterday but then the letter was return back to me. I was given another chance to get used to the work, and if i really couldn't do it or another option comes in i can leave.

But still i will learn all over again, according to my manager I am able to handle the job she passed down to me all i need to do is take down notes ( the lazy me never do it of course and i think that my memories is perfect) and i could get the job down perfectly!

I giving myself the stressed that when my manger is running in the race, I'm walking/crawling slowly behind and she have to turn back and look out for me. It's very tiring, I put myself in her shoes i know how tired it is but she never give up on me she teach me again and again pointing out all the bad attitude , bad points in my entire working life.

On the other hand, I had been sending resume to apply new job I don't know how long i stay on to work over here. I really wish i can fulfill the promise i had with someone get the things done like how my was done this promise can it be fulfill by me or not is still a question mark now.

I HATE MY LIFE MY CHOICE !!!

If i could choose all over again, this will never happen and i make sure that i asked for more option before making choices..

My feeling is numb all i feel is WTF HAVE I DONE!!!!!!!! I really hate myself why am i so stupid!

You will be laughing at me upon reading, yes my life is like a joke due to all the stupid choice i made!!

Laugh as much as you like cause when this happen to you others will laugh about it too.

I won't laugh at all cause I'm facing the problem now and if someone meets the same problem i will listen to theirs and tell them how i overcome in the end!!

JUST !!!!!!!

HATE MYSELF !!!

FUCK MY LIFE!!!

2 week of February

Okays. 

Chinese new year had ended.. I'm glad non of them ask me question like what's you job title ? Got boyfriend ?  The only question they ask is WIFI PASSWORD like seriously you go people house first thing you ask is WiFi password... 

I hate people who add words to things I said.. and also people who love to give use/eaten stuff to me. 

My cousin came and her husband saw my table have lots of tibits so he asked if they could eat?

CUZ HUBBY : WOW YOUR TABLE A LOT TIBITS CAN EAT ? 

ME : SURE WHY NOT. YOU CAN CLEAR THIS AREA GO AHEAD HELP YOURSELF ( POINTING AT THE TIBITS AREA) 

When my sis is back to my house he saw him eat non stop so she ask him.. 

SIS : WAH. THE FOOD VERY DELIOUS RIGHT YOU GOT TO HUG AND EAT WITHOUT SHARING !? 

CUZ HUBBY: HAHAHA.  YOUR SISTER ASK ME TO CLEAR STOCK WANT. 

Wtf you enough add oil add salt add sugar.. you knn... ASK you eat is give you face yet.. fxxk you !! I never say clear my CNY food... he add words into my sentence when my sis ask him wow you can eat a lot hor !!

To me you wanna eat why not and yes please help to clear the stock over there the tibits area... so he start looking at the tibits then open eat no wrong right but then HE EAT ALL MY CNY GOODIES WHICH MEAN FOR OTHERS !! Eh hello now is CNY not 7th month you look like hungry ghost. 

And you got the cheek say that I'm the want ask you clear stock.. ahem!  Please read my reply to him in RED for my reply to him. 

 

I told him to eat the tibits he eat my CNY food and hug it to eat what's more he could eat again after a full dinner ( steamboat) wtf I told my other sis who came the second day all laugh.. 

My aunt more power .. she took her left over JAPAN CHOCOLATE give my mum say she went japan buy want.. 

AUNTIE.  YOU WENT JAPAN IN 2016 DECEMBER AND YOU PASS ME YOUR FUCKING LEFT OVER CHOCOLATE ON CHINESE NEW YEAR 2017.. 

 you something wrong is it?? And you opened it up I'm sure you eat it and give to me cause it's not nice.. 

I asked my mum threw it away I don't bother to take picture of it. I was thinking to take and post on face book let everone know how  GOOD you are. I wasn't home that day if I do I just throw in it the bin right in front of you and take you big photo post on fb let you loss face... 

I don't beg for your things and if you don't want you can jolly well throw it away don't need act nice give me. I have many nice people out there whow travel a lot and buy me nice stuff I no need yours. Seriously! 

Now let me give the last rant before my BFF kiled me and say why I need to mention over and over again to this meaning less person and things

Not I wanted to say is that I never say it out my heart feel so uncomfortable.. 

Thus this is the last time I'm gonna type here... 

I really hate my colleague who is seriously act infort of everyone... 

You want say things please say it out don't talk softly and laugh loud loud... cause you wishper till fucking loud and it's annoying! 

I don't know what the fuck you trying to do. Making everyone believes is you ? Think you are better then other?? Pray you like God? ? 

You are nothing. Don't try to act in front of me... your action shows how stupid you are and also how unsecured you are as if you had lost all trust from us.. 

Anyway. TRUST IS EARNED!  You totally don't earn any fron me anymore I would show you my black face as and when I like cause you totally wasting my time only! 

Posted this on facebook early morning on Valentine's day to let people know how I feel on this day upon seeing your cb act on the last Friday. . 

''TRUST IS EARNED. 

演技拍的你让我大开眼界 人前人后一个样 你不只是演技拍 你是金几百( JIN 78)'' . 

 

My dear ladyboss like my post. I think she know who I'm referring to as the day I never really talk to that person.. my colleague whom gad me in fb must be thinking who is that person and they might guess it... they won't asked but my action tells. 

I hate people who have things wanna tell or asked me yet don't dare ask... you need to beat around the bush to tell me things ?? If is yes then don't come ask me or tells me you want tell me directly.. 

Anyway.. my temper is good to you when you are good to me but when you try to challenge me you are not going to win I killed you with my words and you just died inside my words and you left not even ashes you dissappear on air..

Never try to challenge me you never win me.. your trust to me is worthless as you love to gossip behind my back. And make people thinks I'm always the trouble maker but you never know this.

When you try to gossip behind me they have been gossip behind you as well. What goes around cones around.. 

You will get your karma.. no matter how faithful you are when  you are praying to your god you believe you will still get punish by them its just the matter in time when you get it no one knows but one day you will..

So don't every try.. you are just show me how Unmature you are how childish you are and your fear if losing people who trust you before they know the real you.. 

You act as if you are the viteam but hey who is the real viteam people who watching this useless drama knows it all along..  

You may continue to act let them see your pity face but to me I won't give a fuck as you are just not worth.. I remind myself all don't fall into your trap as you will hurt me like before... I'm not those brainless people who thinks you are always right they don't know how to think all blindly follow your words your action hahaha. 

Eh. I learn your job from you. If you willing to teach me I'm willing to learn you don't want teach then I'm find cause I already mention to you I can learn if you teach.. 

I think if I never be so firm towards learning your job you may think I'm playing only. 

I wanna learn but you need to let me finish my job on hand I can't throw it aside ask you do for me as you.. we will ask each other how to do but you are lucky you can ask one more person I ask who?? No one okays. And when you touch my work I already don't 80% if it you just need to finish 20% that's all... 

I'm not a robot I'm a human.  I make mistake and this is called human error I learn from mistake and try to minimise the unnecessary problem. So don't try to push me to do things. I know my limit and I know how to do it fast without mistake.

You machine paper is fucking good I print all roll up like Swiss roll  so this is machine faulty and then human error as I never really check my work. 

Fair enough??  Both make mistake ya.. 

FML FML FML !!! 

Okays  I rant finish and I better stop saying about worth less people as it's just wasting my time.. I'm gonna smile and I know when you have a good heart nice things happen and people got feel they know who to stay with.. 

Phew ended.

xoxo. 

Lin 

January update

First I wanna say this...

Don't think you work longer then me know more then me you can blah blah blah me... hello I know what you mean when you explain my mistake. Who don't make mistake ? Everyone does and yes when you make mistake you won't notice till someone pointed out... you make miss take too I got say anything human error system error is normal. Just say once will do and shut your fucking mouth up. Thanks.
I don't care how old you are older then me younger then me please just tell me once that's it don't need nag... super irritating!!

Okays. Back to my update..
Seriously this month kinda not my month or should I say not my year. . Fml I fell down few weeks back my leg got a blue black which is still visible although the colour has fade away...

I love my hair colour now... 3 colour and is dame expensive $200+ for it.!

Purple blue highlight and plum for main.. I love how it change colour.. under sunlight 3 colour can be seen. Then slowly only see the blue highlights or purple highlight the Base colour will turn black.. hahaha. I love it... worth my money.. but if the Base is grey maybe will look better alright now got to think what colour I can add to this.. Pink ? Red? Rose gold ?? Well.. see my mood. OK I was warn not to cut my hair again lol see how it goes I might cut shorter then this... 😜

Okays CNY coming the year of rooster bye monkey you make me had a bad year. Good year never last long so.. bye then. Hey rooster welcome please make this year better for me and make me happy smile more scold cry worry less... 

I cancel my holiday trips as things not so smooth now... Well let's see how it goes slowly I still have many months ahead.. 

Oh ya. I hate people talk about their upcoming  trips and I'm not bad mouthing your trips.. please you keep on talked non stop you have enough time you think you though have enough time but I tell you NO YOU DON'T that place you going is dame big place to place is few hours you think you have enough time to me not really as I been there and I know how big the city was and how far you got to walk.. well.. you try it on your trip then good luck. Bring umbralla as it will rain and sunny oh ya jacket can bring but not really cold so dont be too happy you can enjoy 60% of coldness or more... 

Plans in my mind.. 

• Go overseas on May 2017 . 

1. Taiwan 

2. BKK

3. Hong Kong

4. Bali 

5. Island .. I wanna see the beach and sea.. 

• Driving licence 

Dame you so hard to study!! 

● Loss more weight 

I have been eating this month.. and I was warn not to gain any weight.. I better loss more because I had been through so much and came this far.. Not gonna go back to the past.. 

If you ask me about my relationship.. let it be. Let the fate come to me then. I shall stop searching.... 

GUYS PLEASE READ THIS ABOUT ME. 

If you love me then please! 

○ Love me for who I'm. 

○Tolerate all my shit temper be 

it good or bad.

○ I can cook /bake.. its edited ok I won't make you go diarrhoea after eating my food. 😒 

○ Cheer me up when I'm down. Fully support me on my decision if I make a wrong want guide me to the right want.

○ Surprise me? Pick me up after work without tell me bring me to place without asking me where to go.. 

○ Be my best friend and listen to my rant..

○ Be gentleman.  (Don't be so irritating ask girls to go home themselves or pay for their meal. At least send them home or go for a meal in a place you can effortable don't need go atas place ) 

○Let's go  travel. To place I never been before and place I wanted to go.. 

For me I love flowers but  I don't need flowers all time or need you to celebrate V days what months anniversary ect. All you need to do is celebrat birthdays and the years we are together I hate celebrate it  month.. 

Guys. Stop tell me what type of girls you looking for cause words from your mouth and your heart is fucking different.. unmatch.. please don't go around cheat girls feeling.. 

Once you wanna break off or no longer interested in that person .. please move away and let a person whom better then you enter..

 leave and go don't come back look for me or tell me how good Im... if I'm good why you left me.. rubbish... 

End of update. Rant finish.  Dame shiock.. hahaha.. this is me. I'm cold outside crazy after you know me..

I have a fucking bad temper I can be flame up easilly and you will be burn alive. 

I won't let you know how you died I can say words from me is like billion needle pocking and cutting your flash

 I bomb you and turn you into air you left without bone or ash.. you are vanish 

I can be as sweet as honey and you will be the bee. I can be as fierces as a tiger/lion to attack you. I can be as cold as ice as hot as volcano. 

Good or bad?  sweet or unsweetened 

Your choice. 

Wanna control me.. not easy. Unless you know th trick. .

Okays bye. 

End of update.

Xoxo 

Lin. 

Not in mood

Well I don't know why I just not in mood everything to me is MEH! I DON'T LIKE IT'S SO SICKENING! IT'S ANNOYING !! GET LOST !! FUCK YOU!!

Just don't know why I just don't wish to answer anything hear anything.. I find that whatever they talk to me I'm just not intreasted and then yes something I find that their voice is dame annoying..

I wish I could mute them up like how we mute 🔇 our phone our video /shows

I dislike answering question now like what's the point answer your question whereby you have your answer and options  or my answer is nothing. . Not my problem why just I answer. ??

I can say that I don't wish to talk to anyone now. My friends I do talk but hey talk cock is nothung to me as they are doing the same things... talk to my family member ?? Oh well STFU I got nothing to say whatever I say sound so wrong.. I must well zip and turn silence I don't wanna talk about it cause they just don't know what I trying to say...

Is it my problem or theirs??? Talk to them I will died cause they are not even listening and what for I say so much end up quarrel and give face.. I ZIP my mouth is the best way...

I'm happy with myself. I don't own anyone an explanation my world my rules..

Cleaning house time .. CNY coming so clean here and there ok to me THROW AWAY EVERYTHING AS IT'S USELESS!! THROW AWAY !!!!   My most easy way to clean my room.. quick and easy super simple. .

Okay. . I wish I can move out from this house to stay alone I never try it before I think I must do it....

 BUT ~~~

 PLEASE LET ME TRAVEL ALONE IN 2017 I wanna explore places when I still have energy... don't stop me don't tell me I can't do this or that alone.. after all I got mouth to talk / ask and I know how to think... travel while I can when Im young...

Ok
I had a fall on Monday at work and I don't know why my left leg has bruised now and eveny right tights too.

 And the ever next day Tuesday while I was styling my hair I got burn by the hair strightner wtf I scald my hand... Im not sleepy at all...

Super unlucky... Now it's like the beginning of 2017 and I fall down and then scald my hand what next just today while posting letter my hand got clip by the post box wtf... middle finger.. pain.

While who cares for me but myself...

Anyway.

I have like tons of things to finish this few weeks and I'm like WHATEVER!! I DON'T CARE... MY HAIR MY FACE is imortant to me plus my work....

Thank you I'm still breathing !!

I don't care what's happening around me now. Not my problem I don't give a FUCK!!
Just remember don't care about others as no one does the same way to you....

Cheers.
Lin
xoxo

3rd day in 2017

First day of primary 1. Time files. He is all grown up. Remember the first day of N2 he was so shy and dislike wearing school uniform only wiling to wear after few months .. this time he is so happy to wear this uniform to school.  

He woke up dame early to prepare himself.. God bless me I will be taking him to school every morning... 

I have to sleep early too?? Kinda hard leh.. feels like I'm the want going school instead of him why must I wake up so early to school..... i haven been school after I graduated like... N Year's ago excuse me I'm only  turning 25 this year ! Wtf I sound so old now... hais. .. 

Be cheerful as always don't scare of anything... Be brave ok! BIG BOY ALREADY !! 

* lucky he never sob in school if not I laugh non stop* 

 Cause big boy going school his mummy prepare him bento. So his ah yi  (auntie) me got a share too and I got to cook the egg myself. The rest was prepare by my sis... hahaha .. more to come he every day bring food I everyday got food.. save money !!

Okays. BACK TO MYSELF.  

Yes I chop off my semi long hair on the very first day on 2017.. 1 January.  

Don't bother to think about how it looks just chop it off.. I don't care as it will grow back.. Now I got to think of the colour of my hair.. CNY coming so it's a good time to get new hairstyle and colour. I had been changing hair style before Cny so it's like no big deal.. 

But this time I give everyone in office a shock..they ask me what happen why suddenly cut till so short .. ok  find... just you know for new look that's all... anyway  this is the very first time I cut my hair will so short till my neck length... few months back  i cut till callor bone area while  Im having a long hair... okays short hair suits me too so no worries only thing is I need to blow my hair everyday. .

Okays.. I have to go bed now. Cause I'm heading to school to know is my nephew class..   I am a working adult ok school is out of topic I will fall asleep in class 

Cheers 

Lin 

xoxo