Finally FREE from stressed

Finally I'm free yes FREE!!   FUCK HER TO THE MAX!!!  she is dame crazy one moment she was scolding me  then the other moment suddenly become very nice and then turn crazy again!!  If I were to stay I might be ended up in mental hospital!! 

Seriously no joke!! I really don't understand how could a person be like this adding all her stressed to the other is like no logic right.

Yes I'm single and worry less. I don't have kids to take care of and what I do is pay some bills give my mum so money and that's all.  So what I don't need pay my other expenses? Don't jealous about my life my salary is not like your salary.. You could ask for more but you don't want and please don't try to act like you are very mighty everyone got to look up on you or wanna be like you.

Nope I won't want. I don't want be like you cause you only think you are right and please if you wanna say things behind people back remember this they will say you as well.

I never fight back when you nag me because I don't want to waste my time on your useless comment I know right and wrong I don't need you to teach me I'm big enough to make the choice my own. 

If you found my blog and reading it
DON'T TRY TO ASK ME WHY THIS WHY THAT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE YOU BETTER REMEBR IT AND STOP BEING LIKE THAT.  Don't tell me you will reflect because you won't do it as you might think you are always right and others always wrong..

Finally I'm free from the hell!!! WHY I WANNA LEAVE ?

You ALWAYS say I don't know how to use my brain.

Number 1) I never encounter this before how would I know what to write and you always say I don't know how to write email the way I write not proper blah blah blah.

LET ME EXPLAIN - why not you show me then I learn but your words hurt me what's call I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE MY BRAIN SO SIMPLE YET I DONT KNOW  I really don't know what's you want me to do??  Make a fool of myself let people laugh at you why you hired a staff who knows nothing? 

Number 2) you asked me help you make tea for your who?  Aunt?  She ask you why treat me like helper how you answer her?  I NEED TO USE MY BRAIN TO DO MY WORK, SHE ( REFERING ME)  DON'T NEED USE BRAIN TO DO WORK.

LET ME EXPLAIN - I help you make tea is because you are busy so I'm being helpful. IF MY WORK DON'T NEED USE BRAIN WHY YOU KEEP ON SCOLD ME?  I DON'T NEED TO USE MY BRIAN WHAT THIS IS WHAT YOU SAID! 

Number 3 ) when I was unwell what you say to me? forget let me refresh for you!  I SHALL BE THE WANT THAT FALL A SICK I GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO DO I SHALL BE THE WANT WHO GOT SICK. YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING STILL SICK. 

LET ME EXPLAIN - HELLO!  you think I want to be sick?? I can choose it?   I never do anything so I won't get sick OMG really so why the machine break down even when they are place there for a long time?

You are not fit to be a boss you only wanna show off to your ex boss and snitch away his client but did you win I don't think so.

Say me got mood swing?  Yes I have since birth and it's in my blood my face expression will tell you my mood of the day. 

Yours is more scary. Face changing mood well I also know this you wanna try my version? 

你要比狠是不是 我就做到最绝.
Yes i did mention if I wanna died I will died in the shop. This is my rules I make sure you taste your own medicine if you never be like this I won't do or say such things.

Remember. 我要绝可以很绝 我要玩可以玩恨大 玩 我会玩到让你死去活来！ 
You asked for it. Don't say I never warn you! 

I'm so so so so happy. I no longer so stressed. When I was there the stressed is in me till I turning crazy people around me keep on ask if I'm OK?  No I'm not if i were to be OK I won't say I wanna burn down her shop and I will be inside died together. I never want to end up the way cause she is way too much control me this and that every time ask IS MY JOB VERY HARD ? YOU GO OUTSIDE COULDN'T FIND THIS KIND IF JOB!  And also keep on repeat what my ex company things how they say me this and that.

I can't control their mouth they wanna bad mouth who is their problem. Because the mouth belongs to them and it grows on their face what they wanna say I can't stop I myself also will do same thing so what for I care?? Soon or later karma will come to you right? 

I don't want to know what they say it's over and don't need bring up anymore...

If I can I will slap you instead yes you cause I seriously hate you.

You push me to the limit I wish to control but sorry I'm not going to do it anymore.

My life My choice

Don't interfere my life!

My life my choice why must you care?  I know you want to help but then please I don't need your help cause you are way too much..

I choose the life I want why must you a outsider come an interfere??  Joke right I don't need that whatever I do I like it or not is my problem so please stay away from it.

If you want me to follow the road you choose for me I'm sorry to say WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU WHY MUST I LISTEN TO YOU?  ARE YOU MY PARENTS??  MY FAMILE MEMEBER??  NO YOU ARE AN OUTSIDER WHOM I KNOW LIKE YEAR PLUS! 

Don't try to make me listen to you.  I can listen to your advice I don't need to follow your words like choose what job I'm going to do.

I choose my job scope myself I want to challenge myself so I aim another job but you keep on want me to follow you please shut the fuck up i don't want to listen to your voice!! 

Let me go off on time and I'm happy to go for new job!!  I know it hard but I have to try my friend support me to try ask me to try it out I shall accept this challenge and do it.  Not easy but I have to try.  

All thanks to some people!  I just wanna rant my feeling and yes I'm so stressed up by one person who force me to stay over and over again in the job so now others think I'm crazy I need to go seek a doctor!!

It's true I need to cause I'm going break down soon due to the naging me to stay please shut that fuck up!!  Let me go off

You go look for other staff thanks. Why I don't fight back when people say me is because I don't want waste my time at useless people no matter what I say you also think it's wrong I better don't waste my time reply  I just zip my mouth will do..

Just because of shutting up makes you think I'm weak hahaha I just don't want waste time on your useless question no point answer you cause you are the want who always think you are right!!! 

Let me count down the days to leave your office. Finally free!!

I will never reply your stupid boring question like is my job difficult to do. No but I don't like you are dame irritating that's all no one like you actually you think people like you well no really like you say those who can tolerate you are same as you!!! 

You say me equal say yourself!  You ask your kids if they like the way you kpkb at them??  No  non if them like!! 

Please stop kpo-ing my life.

Get lost please!! 

Bitch! 

I HATE MY LIFE MY CHOICE!!!

Seriously i got no idea what to do now.

I lock myself up and cut contact with my BFF! I'm not angry with them at all i just don't know what to say whenever i meet them. There is a distance between us i got no idea how am i going to fix this they are perfect to me they know me since secondary school and we had been friends for like 10 years to 11 years, how come things turn out this way when i start to stay away from them..

I change job from accountant to administrative, I TOTALLY DYING SOON!!!

I never know how stressed i can be right now, everything i know for admin work return back to the teacher i know nuts now and whatever i learn become rusty as i never use it often during accountant job!

The job i did last time is more like A and B then repeat, even like this i did learn a lot from the people who taught me. Before i resign from that company i could give them a full details of things i did and pass down even though i miss out some while typing the details in excel sheets ( i key all the details while i got job on hand ) . Its not easy to typing all details that each company needs i took few hours doing it i got to edit if there is mistake and print  out the copies for the next person that take over my job.

Am i happy over there? The answer is HAPPY & SAD !
I do have problems there all because of some people, then my mood become very unstable i could be happy at one moment angry at the other moment MOOD SWING all the way. The staff there did say things behind my back and my lady boss also can't take it,  I have been giving them problem during that time all because of ONE FUCKER! Partly its my fault if i never say those things out it won't end up that way.

Thinking back now when i first took over the job i only have about 12 company needs list on hand and the rest of the company needs i have to ask while doing it. This is not easy as i had been making mistake as well during that times i need to learn others things over there too.

Till the days before i leave the company, I could give them about 20 company needs listed and to my surprise i actually remember a lot of things i learn over the past one year working at there.

I had a wonderful lady boss, fun colleague ! But still i choose to leave the company choose to leave the accountant position and go take the administrative position challenge.

Now i feel very stressed, did i choose the job scope wrongly this time ? Being a insurance agency admin how hard can it be? Still doing paper work , replied email , answer called only different is you will encounter different clients and things ! How stressed can it be? I should feel stress less here  but sorry NO I DON'T!

Working over here is very lively i encounter many different things. Sometime i can go Malaysia or even i can go home at the earliest time 3 - 4 Pm when many people still at work.. I should be happy about it right I DO FEEL HAPPY AND I FEEL UNHAPPY too why ?

I have a hard time weeks ago, i keep on get scolding non stop and also mistake all over the work! I don't know what happen to me!! Side effect for taking slimming coffee? Maybe!!

I tender my resignation letter yesterday but then the letter was return back to me. I was given another chance to get used to the work, and if i really couldn't do it or another option comes in i can leave.

But still i will learn all over again, according to my manager I am able to handle the job she passed down to me all i need to do is take down notes ( the lazy me never do it of course and i think that my memories is perfect) and i could get the job down perfectly!

I giving myself the stressed that when my manger is running in the race, I'm walking/crawling slowly behind and she have to turn back and look out for me. It's very tiring, I put myself in her shoes i know how tired it is but she never give up on me she teach me again and again pointing out all the bad attitude , bad points in my entire working life.

On the other hand, I had been sending resume to apply new job I don't know how long i stay on to work over here. I really wish i can fulfill the promise i had with someone get the things done like how my was done this promise can it be fulfill by me or not is still a question mark now.

I HATE MY LIFE MY CHOICE !!!

If i could choose all over again, this will never happen and i make sure that i asked for more option before making choices..

My feeling is numb all i feel is WTF HAVE I DONE!!!!!!!! I really hate myself why am i so stupid!

You will be laughing at me upon reading, yes my life is like a joke due to all the stupid choice i made!!

Laugh as much as you like cause when this happen to you others will laugh about it too.

I won't laugh at all cause I'm facing the problem now and if someone meets the same problem i will listen to theirs and tell them how i overcome in the end!!

JUST !!!!!!!

HATE MYSELF !!!

FUCK MY LIFE!!!